Muses, Misadventures, and Many, Many Voices

I had my second Algebra test Friday, and I don't know what I got on it yet. 9 out of 10 on the last quiz, though. And I have a Sociology test on Monday.

Am I studying yet? Hell, no. See, I have this notebook I carry around with me. In said notebook is a long list of things I mean to get done, most of them related in some way to my web stuff, or my trillion and one writing projects. I always try to get it all done on the weekends- never do, but I can chip away at it.

This weekend I decided I'd take up this little time: "Break Emperor's Heir [Star Wars fic] into chapters." Because how hard can that be?

Right. I found myself rewriting chapter six- which kind of needed it. And then so did chapter seven. So that's done, and they're much better now, but there are weak spots in chapter four, a few more in chapter eight. And I'm avoiding looking too carefully at nine and ten, because I know they have issues.

What the hell was I thinking? I just had to pick this up again, didn't I? Now nothing is going to get done.

Somewhere in the back of my head, Daren Palpatine is laughing. Bloody Imperial bitch. (And she's still laughing; she would think that was funny. And it is sort of true...)

And in other arenas of wasting time (and having fun doing it, of course) theatrical_muse's mods are going to let the active people have a third muse if they want it. I'm not sure I count as active- I try, but there were a few topics there where the girls didn't feel like commenting. And on the other end of the scale there's Jaina's response to the self-preservation vs forgiveness challenge, which is still ongoing. But I'm going on the assumption that I could be active if I wanted to be, and that I might have a shot at a fourth muse.

I'm just not sure if I want one or not. I mean, I want one, obviously, but I don't know if I really have time. Sometimes I feel like three is too much. Other times I feel like it's not enough, and I'd really like a fourth. I just don't know who it would be. And before I know it I'm thinking more than I should about that- who it ought to be... I have ideas, of course. Damn them all.

*sigh* Could the entire cast of Star Wars please stop clamoring for my attention? Right now? (Because I could write Padme Amidala. Or Emperor Palpatine. Or Grand Admiral Thrawn. Or Mara Jade Skywalker. Or...No, the OCs cannot come out and play. (Shut up, Daren... Gilly... Alaina... all of you...)

*buries head in hands* What am I doing to myself?

what's that word?

I need a word and I can't think what it is... MS Word's thesauris is no use at all, because I can't think of anything that's even close to what I want. If I could, of course, this wouldn't be a problem.

The first thing I came up with is "dynamic", which is no good...

Maybe some context would help? Can't hurt. :)

Like so: "It had been [that] mission which had begun to change the [something] of their relationship." With the 'something' being, of course, the word or phrase I can't come up with. What it ought to be is something that implies... sort of a shift in focus, but not quite that. Maybe it won't fit into the sentance quite the way it is now, I'll have to mess around with it a bit. But what I want to say, basically, is that the characters go on this mission, and it's sort of a turning point in their relationship. That the relationship changed after that. (And I don't want to say it was a turning point. I really really don't.)

Anyone have any clue what I'm going after here? Even something close, that I can plug into the thesauris that'll maybe get me on the right track to what I want?

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And yes, I do realize I could just say "it had been that mission which begun to change their relationship" and skip all of this nonsense, but I want the word. :)