urbandruid

This is really random, but does anyone know a cure for the hiccups that actually works? I was getting ready to go to bed last night, and they just started up on me. And refused to go away for at least a half an hour. I know it's some kind of muscle spasm that causes it, which would imply that you need to relax the muscles, but cranking my electric blanket didn't seem to be doing it much good, until it decided to go away on its own.

The human body is so odd sometimes...

I have a million things to do, and, true to form, I'm not really doing any of them. I only discovered- last weekend, I think it was, that the last time I messed with the journal pages at Urbandruid, I accidentally uploaded the journal index over the main index page. And I think I screwed with the journal last in... uh, well, September, from what the error logs tell me? No one mentioned this, of course, but it's hard to blame them- when I haven't updated the site in forever, why visit?

I'm working on cleaning up and redoing a lot of stuff on the domain now, but it's so much work that I just want to bury my head in the sand.

Of course, this is how I feel about most things lately, so...

Depression is still kicking my ass, though things are starting to get a bit better. Mostly because I don't really have to do anything anymore. Except, you know, the million and one things that I dump on myself. Because I'm a mad overachiever that way. You think I'd have learned by now, but oh no, not me.

I'm trying not to take it too far, because starting to get better doesn't mean being better... but I guess we'll just see how it goes.

I'm pretty sure something has died in my kitchen. I'm not keen to investigate too closely, though- think I'll just haul the trash out and hope the smell goes away.

My Buffy season 2 is in Richmond, Ca. Which is on the coast. It started out in Nevada. So here's my question. Why couldn't they just have gone on down the highway when they hit central California? Since, you know, I live here?

Buffy is taking the long way around, apparently. With my luck, it'll show up when I'm at the doctor's tomorrow. Since it has to come all the way back from some speck on the map near Berkeley (looked it up in the atlas, otherwise I wouldn't know this- Geography Girl I am not). It's not really important, but it is mildly annoying. Leave it to the post office, I suppose.

Anyway. I got this lovely Irina fic from dagnylilytable today. I read it when I was half awake, so I think I'm going to read it again before I send any comments. I like it, though. Five things that didn't happen to Irina Derevko. I should do one of those fics... or two or three. Looks like a lot of fun.

Oh yes. I need another fic to add to my "I'll write it someday!" list like I need a hole in the head. But at least it comes complete with title, right? :)

Remember how I said Urbandruid was one little document from being done? Hah! I forgot the incidental tweaking and oh-shit-gotta-fix-that which goes along with every new website design; the bigger the site, the more of that stuff there is. All day I've been finding little things, like the fact that some of my redesigned pages still have filenames like "test.htm". I know there's going to be stuff I won't find until after I upload it all, but I'm trying to minimize that.

So I've been working on little stuff for a couple hours now. I think I need a break. Possibly a long one.

I have a killer headache that's only slowly going away with periodic applications of Tylenol. Sinuses- it's only one side of my head. Which feels like it's had an axe driven through it, but it could be worse I suppose. Could be my entire head.

And it's not like things are, you know, quiet around here. Idiot construction workers...can't believe there's not a city ordinance about noise, they're just supposed to 'politely' wait till 8:00 or something to start... And every time I look out there, there are no trucks, no signs, and nobody's wearing a t-shirt stating who they work for so or anything that I can call and complain.

Convenient, huh?

Finished Shadow Dancer - the Anna Sheridan fansite & fanlisting yesterday. One of my weirder obsessions, which I'm going to stop pimping now, but anyway... thought some of you might like to see.

Am very proud of myself for getting it up- the first official Urbandruid page. Yay!

By the way, I'd like to apologize to those of you who don't use laptops, and to whom the Urbandruid placeholder page looks really horrible. I thought about fixing it, but I'm basically lazy, and it'll be gone soon...

...oh, Gods. My self-imposed deadline for Urbandruid is in two days.

Unreal. I still have so much to do. And as always, I wanted to do one massive upload, viola, here it is. Never works. Never, ever, ever works.

So I suppose from here on out things will simply slip online.

I'm debating suddenly how to phase out sentri.net. Should I just delete everything, or leave a reference page up, or...? Who the hell am I kidding? The only people who visited sentri will know the new URL because I'll have given it to them. And I think the only site of mine ever linked to was the Gundam Wing one, which I so far haven't redone.

I tried, and it just didn't... I don't know. I planned too much for that site, never did it, and then there it was, a whole lot of not much. So I saved the fic, incorporated it into the overall fic site I've really needed to do for a long time...And I feel kind of bad about it, because I know some people in GW fandom will expect it to come back with the new domain, but I just can't. And there's no point to a whole site, the way I try to do them, when all there would be is fic. Fic I don't know when I'm updating, by the way- in a way I feel quite sorry for the 'Ghost Knight' fans, because it's not like I'm on a schedule for turning out chapters or anything.

I am, however, considering taking the design I made for the GW site before deciding to give up on it, tweaking it a bit, and resurrecting it as the Treize/Lady Une fansite/resource/ect of doom. It's a major project and I'm hesitant to undertake it, but it's not like I don't read every fic with that pairing I can get my hands on anyway...Yeah.

But I think I'm going to hold off on that for a bit, wait and see how I do with this fanlisting thing. I'm probably okay as far as the Anna FL and the seaQuest Captain Stark ones, as I can't imagine they'll be too terribly popular. But I somehow managed to get approval for the official Crusade FL.

Yep, that Crusade. It's not quite done, but when it is... It just struck me as rather sad that it hadn't already been done. And I had that nice design (the redesign of the old empty Crusade page) that I needed to do something with...

Right. Urbandruid. At least I know what I'm doing today.

New AIM is AurorDark, which I'll be on later if anyone wants to talk. Because, you know, I can't just work, I have to have distractions too.

Yay! Headache is going away. 'Course, now that I said that it'll be back...

I hate this time change. Hate hate hate hate.

And whoever is outside in the apartment parking lot needs to stop hitting the goddamn air breaks for shits and giggles right now.

I need about another hour of sleep. Maybe I can get it in Bio? Wait...that won't work. I sit in the front row, prof's bound to notice.

I will get used to this, right? I must have done it last year, but suddenly my mind's gone all blank and fuzzy.

Note to self: Okay, when you get home you can have a nap, but then you've gotta revise the damned Trotsky paper.

*sigh* Comrade Trotsky and I are on the outs, I'll tell ya.

And I really need to finish Urbandruid. This not really having an active website thing is really starting to get to me. My fingers itch, and there's this little voice in my head saying "code me! coooode me!" Kinda like "Little Shop of Horrors".

Having spent two days doing math homework and taking what feels like reams of notes for my history paper, I feel like I need a weekend to recover from my weekend. I remember now how much I hate the middle of the term, and why. I want to write, and not really the Trotsky paper. I'll be proud of myself when it's done, but right now it is a thorn in my side.'

Alias, fascinating depths of Irina, and I want to write out everything that's in my head, from "A Dark Turn" to here, finish "Waiting the Dawn", my "Ice and Glass" sequel some day. But none of it's happening this week, at least not until after the paper is done.

Urbandruid, for those of you keeping score, is moving along at a pretty good clip considering the little time I have to work on it. I'm still not sure if I'll meet my deadline, but at least it gives me something to shoot for.

Fandom obsessive much? I just realized I have no non-fandom icons. Must do something about that in my (the joke's not even funny anymore) spare time.

Have spent half my afternoon & evening playing with Urbandruid stuff, working towards the semi-deadline of my birthday, aka May 2. As a present to myself, I would like it done by then.

It's coming, but slowly. As always there are sticking points; the fandom page is one now. Design wise I know exactly what I want to do, but not having done frames in about two years, I'm slightly rusty. I should really just dig up my old frames from Sentri's old poetry page and use them, but they won't do what I want them to, damnit.

Slowly it crawls along, fragment by fragment. I have all the frames on the page now; only problem is that their sizing bites. Gah. Giving up for the night.

If I were to be doing anything approaching work or fulfilling obligations, I'd be studying for tomorrow's French test, or out with the digital camera, taking pictures in hopes something will hit me for Urbandruid. thenonsense suggested a tree with those little bars around it, which I liked a lot, but I can't find one. I want some strange combination of urban and not, and I haven't got it.

What I do have are some really nice pictures I took in Yosemite about six years ago, most of which lack any sense of urban, except one I've been playing around with- a lake in fog, with the road and a "no parking" sign visible. But it's just not cooperating for me here.

Update: Yay! Got it to do what I wanted to. Now we build outward from here...

The hilarity of it all...someone's taken Tisiphone.net, and even has a placeholder: "i am on teh internet." Direct quote, minus the period. Huh. Strange, I'd almost talked myself into that one. It's down to the other two now (yeah, I know I said that before, but they kept cropping back up) and I suppose I had better decide before somebody else makes the choice for me. I think that would really piss me off.

I think I finally have it figured out.

To be honest, I probably had it from the start, I was only distracting myself with other things, playing around... you know how it goes. But I know what I've wanted all along.

I have to pay a bill or two, and then that domain is mine. Yes, I know which one. I may at some point get one of the others, if they still appeal to me and if I know what the hell I'm going to do with it...

Of course, emailing Lindsay to tell her about this, I have more ideas for my second choice than I do for my first. It's just so perfect... Oh, hell.

Killing time on the computer when I should be doing something more productive, homework or cleaning my room or balancing my checkbook- but so what else is new? A months' worth of logs and stats, sentri.net in all of its oddness, and I realize as I read them that I no longer know the purpose behind the robots.txt file; that there is no point to having a site online that you don't want people to find.

And I wonder why no one knows my name.

So I think that I will get rid of that, though what the point is with the domain's days so likely numbered... Well, the search queries that pop up amuse me. "Anlashok sentri", is one I just saw. Hell, that's half the path to the Babylon 5 site right there. People are strange, I guess.

A list grows, domains that could belong to me if only I could make up my mind. If only one of them would speak to me, really speak to me; I play with them in my head, write them down in pen, type them... waiting for something to hit me the right way. I have either too few choices or too many; I can't tell anymore.

I play with words and dot nets, dot coms (but I'm sort of used to my .net), and I feel like what I need is a second opinion, but Mom thinks I'm strange enough. Of course, back in the day I explained sentri to Mom using Adam's bullshit; "it's pronounced 'century'- no, you're still not getting it quite right..."

And I may have found something.