Woe and random bits of hysterical laughter

[urbandruid]

I have caught Mom's cold, alas. It's terrible. Very very sore throat, throbbing sinuses... Mom's is trying to go into bronchitis, but mine will try to go into a sinus infection.

Damnit. Didn't we just leave this party?

I still have my take-home essay question to answer for Soc, and the reading that goes with it. And some Algebra, which I'm probably going to put off till tomorrow, when I'll have tons of time, because we only have to do the multiple-choice part of the Soc test in class. Yes.

I hope like hell I feel better tomorrow, because I have to go to class anyway, and it'd be cool if I could pay attention and, like, learn stuff.

Played the Lottory last night. Alas, did not win. Woe! They say money can't buy happiness, and they're right. But it would buy my mother and I out of this apartment, a house of our own in a good area, or at least not a really bad one. It would also buy us a new car so that we could stop worrying about when ours is going to die. 'Cause it's gonna. And it would mean we would never again have to worry about being as poor as we were when I was in junior high and the first part of high school.

It's not the money; it's the security.

In a way paganism gives me a perspective on this. For whatever reason, it isn't time for us to leave the apartment yet, it isn't time for the house and the car and the cat and all the stuff we want. Maybe, I tell myself, the house that's perfect for us isn't out there yet for us to have. Maybe it's just not meant to be yet.

I tell myself these things, but then I get pissed off because people who don't deserve wealth and security always seem to get it without effort, and good people like me, like my mother, like my friends, have to struggle and struggle to get where they deserve to be.

Yeah. Life isn't fair. It sucks.

I'm going to keep playing the Lotto, though. Someday that ticket might have the winning numbers, you know?

Okay, enough of that. In unrelated news, I retired jaina_muse from t_m; she and I just weren't speaking. pellaeon may be on his way out, too, but right now I'm just sort of ignoring him.

In Jaina's place I adopted starlight_mage; Galen. *hugs Galen and dances around the room with him* I love Galen. I'm having more fun already.

Also, Star was cool enough to give me joint control of apocalypsebox, which is still cracking me up. Her, too, I think.

irina_derevko wants to run with the Nazgul (well, being Irina, she wants to lead the Nazgul), shadow_anna wants to adopt Draco Malfoy, and, oh yes, starlight_mage is this close to having words with Londo about Anna.

I need this kind of insanity. I need it a lot. And writing Galen instead of Jaina feels like I was meant to do it all along. I decided to go for it after chatting with Star a bit, and after I realized how totally pissed I would be if someone else snatched him up before I could. I'm surprised no one had, but then I've been surprised by a lot of characters that have gone unwritten.

Life is good, even when it's bad.

Comments

[selenak.livejournal.com]

What about fourth season Neroon?

[urbandruid.livejournal.com]

I always kind of liked 4th season Neroon... Oh. You weren't talking to me, were you? ;)

It's the cold meds. I blame everything strange I do lately on the cold meds.

[g_shadowslayer]

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