NaNo: Noooooo!

[urbandruid]

Gah.

I don't want to NaNoWrite anymore. I don't. I'm just turning out crap, crap, and more crap- and the apartment is doing that lovely lack of heat thing again which means I can hardly move my fingers...shit. Why me?

I don't want to write, I don't want to do my math homework, I don't want to do anything except sit on my ass and whine about how pathetic I am, how much my novel sucks, and how much I just want to give up. It's awful, on its way to really dreadful. Why did I do this to myself? Why?

I'm thinking I should not have used that really old idea I could never make work. The NaNo people are right, you've got too much invested, and the minute I decided to call my main character Kimberly Miller, the minute I made her that Kimberly Miller, of the old "I tried to write a really horrid novel when I was thirteen" fame, it became... well, it became this, which is a huge problem and... I hate it. I hate everything.

What was I thinking? What was I thinking?

And I think my word count is fucked up anyway; it sems to take the three astricks I use to mark ends of chapters as a word...so I suck more than I ever thought I would.

But yeah, I'm still typing. I'm going to catch bohemienne if it kills me. And it might.

Edited to add: Word count = 3972 bits of crap :)

Comments

[bohemienne.livejournal.com]

Just start a new new story. Don't throw out your current count, just hit a page break and start somewhere completely new. If you hate the story that much, then you won't make it. :(

Come on, I need an ass-kicking!

[scottique.livejournal.com]

Don't feel too bad; I'm still at less than 500 words... school is kicking ass right now, and that ass happens to be mine. :-P

YOU CAN DO IT! YOU CAN DO IT!

[urbandruid.livejournal.com]

*lol* That's exactly how I feel... I can just see the demonic little grins my professors are wearing. "Gee, it's the month before finals....let's drive all our students INSANE!"

Yep...not giving up yet. I'm not. Was just having a bad day, is all.