I think I'm gonna live

[urbandruid]

I'm really not dead. No, seriously. I have almost no time, and my class is killing me, but I ain't dead yet.

I had a test Wednesday, which means I had no homework Thursday. Thank gods! So, after sleeping in a lot, I was actually able to get one thing done- a post I've owed leviathanmuse for... uh, let's just call it a while. Writing that felt good. It's the first real writing I've been able to do in what feels like ages, and I realized that I'm going to have to make time to write more, because if I don't, I really will go crazy. I know this from before, when other classes have buried me like this, and I've let the writing slide towards being nonexistant.

It's not that school isn't important- of course it is- but no matter how much homework I do, or how many honor society meetings I attend, without writing, my life has no soul. That, crazy as it might sound, is the truth.

I think the key is not to let the work pile up, to do it as soon as I get it, so that I'm not increasingly stressed in the days leading up to a test, and not able to do anything else but poke at the homework and tear my hair out. I'm going to try to get started with this today, and I'll have all day, too. I have class from 8 to 9, then my meeting doesn't start till two in the afternoon. So inbetween I have... ugh. Five hours to do homework, write, and/or otherwise lose my mind.

This week I'm going to try to use that time. It's just hard when I'm used to having privacy to write (not a lot of smut gets written at school ;) and all around me are people doing people-like things. I can do it, I've done it before, I just have to kind of settle into it. If I can remember how, I'll get so into the writing that I won't give a damn where I am. I hope.

And, please, Goddess, even with more units, next semester won't be this bad. I will make sure that it isn't this bad. This is the last math class I need, for one thing- after this I have easy stuff, like Geology. And, okay, Speech, but there's a group Speech class for those of us who'd rather not do it on our own (aka, me) and, well... Anyway, I think it's downhill from here. If I can just survive this semester with my sanity and GPA intact.

Plus, if I work today right, I shouldn't have any homework over the weekend. Ah, bliss! Two glorious days, plus tonight, with no stabbing at the graphing calulator (which is a tool of the devil, btw) and swearing at problems that won't work out right.

Okay, and it would be good if I passed that test, too... but you know, overall I'm starting to feel less buried, and more like I can cope with all of this. Yay!

Comments

[leviathanmuse.livejournal.com]

Awww, too much work will make you insane. I should know. Did receive said post and go for it!

[g_shadowslayer]

Yeah, I know how that no writing thing can make you nutty. Is no fun. I'm glad things will be getting better -- we don't want the math classes to eat you!