I'm awake. Why am I awake?

[urbandruid]

I think I'm seriously starting to hate the sound of my alarm clock. It always feels like I've just gotten to sleep (and am enjoying that nice thing called sleep) when the damn thing goes off. It used to just play bad music, because the alarm noise always scares the hell out of me, but now I seem to be getting morning shows instead of music.

I hate morning shows. They are crass and gross and stupid, and I want to strangle these people.

I hate Mondays, too. I'm tired, and I just want to curl up and go back to bed. I love my class, I really do, I just wish it wasn't so freaking early. It's cold out there. It won't be cold later, of course- like by the time I'm walking home from the bus stop. Which complicates the issue of what to wear, and requires me to think, which is kinda hard this freaking early.

I am never scheduling another 7AM class again. Or at least not next semester.

I've got all this stuff I need to write, and I feel like a total slacker for not doing it. Even though I've tried. Even though I started a TM topic response last night- still need to finish it.

It sucks being a perfectionist. Trust me on this one.

In addition to being a perfectionist, I'm also crazy, because I still can't talk myself out of au100 or NaNo. I haven't signed up for either yet, but it's probably just a matter of time. I've just gotta catch up on a few things first.

I'm tempted to claim one thing real quick for au100 because others might want it, and I'll be annoyed if I don't get it first, even if I can always write it later. The other, on the other hand, is something that as a pairing, no one else is going to want, as I only know one other person who even kinda writes it, and she's smarter than me, so is avoiding this whole thing.

Okay, have I lost my mind? I know I never met a fic challenge I wasn't at least tempted by, but this is ridiculious. I have so much to do that I wonder if I'm ever going to see the bottom of the list, and now I want to add what? Uh-uh. No way.

Well, okay, maybe when I finish that TM stuff, we can think about it.

The jury's still out on NaNo. I really wanted to do it this year, but I just don't know if I can. Crazy or not, I know how busy I really am, and adding trying to write a whole novel next month into the mix isn't going to do me any favors. I know that. So why the hell am I still tempted to do it?

*sigh* This is all really too much to think about this early in the morning. I'd love to just go back to bed and deal with it later. Not that I'd get a lot of sleep, because they're still working on the place next door, but still. It's the thought that counts. I can't even say I'll take a nap when I get home, because it'll probably be way too noisy by then. Oh well.

I'd take a nap on the bus, but Gods only know where I'd end up. Nowhere I'd want to be, that's for sure. On the plus side, I did remember to charge my iPod last night, which means I don't have to listen to the people on the bus (or their annoying cell phone rings), so, for a Monday, I may not be doing too bad after all.

...Can I go back to bed now?

Comments

[strangemuses.livejournal.com]

TV morning shows are actually designed to be crass and loud and stupid in order to annoy people into waking up and getting on with their day.

If you're tempted to take on another big fic-writing task (cause they sound like fun) but you're already feeling overwhelmed with the stuff you've got going now, I'd recommend that you only sign up for one or the other of them, but not both because you could end up stressing yourself out even more.

[leviathanmuse.livejournal.com]

*Looks innocent.* Can't imagine who you're talking about...