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So I'm sitting here, writing the letters that will go in my Christmas cards (which are going to be late, but I'm sending them anyway), and I'm starting with my old gaming friends, who moved to Arizona last summer. And the funny thing is how little I really want to write this letter.

I loved them. I missed them terribly, and sometimes I still do. But too much time has gone by, and there are whole parts of my life they know nothing about at all. I was very much in the thick of the eye thing when they left, deciding whether to have the surgery or not, but I never said one word to them about it, and I don't think that I'm going to start now. It's too much, and they don't... I loved them. It pains me to say they might not get it. But well, they might not.

This letter is going to be one of the hard ones, I think.

...

Okay. It's done. I think it's sort of crap, though.

*sigh* I need to clean my keyboard. The 'v' is sticking again.

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So the letters are progressing, and I'll probably be able to get the bulk of the cards out tomorrow. And I am so tired... still recovering from Return of the King, I guess. Wow. What a long day that was, yesterday.

Alias, and more Theatrical stuff

I have three Christmas cards done, and I still feel like a lazy bum. But three is better than none.

I could do more, and I may write more letters later, but my printer is misbehaving. It keeps printing things, then deciding to eat them. Argh! *beats printer with stick* If it's not one thing, it's another. (It scans fine now, thank you very much. Ugh!)

Alias rerun tonight, when I was expecting, or at least hoping, for a new one. I was watching something else earlier on the same network, caught a preview out of the corner of my eye. Thought I saw Irina.

I didn't, of course. Just Sydney. Reruns. Three weeks before anything new. Damnit. *sigh* I miss my Spymommy.

So I guess I'm going to be playing around a lot more with my irina_derevko in the next three weeks.

Bah! Alias Media's screencaps only have Jack's username from the "Sucession" chat. I really needed Irina's. Too. Will have to keep digging, I suppose. The annoying thing is that I saw it tonight, I just couldn't get close enough to see it before it was gone.

I think I'll amuse myself making icons, or something. "Miss you" just begs for it.

I keep having to slap myself on the wrist, tell myself my third muse for theatrical_muse cannot be Sydney Bristow, that something else will hit me and I'll want it more, something I wouldn't feel so guilty about asking for... *sigh* It's not that I want Sydney so much as it is that I want something else, and a lot of times my default writing voice for Alias is Sydney, because everything happens to Sydney.

If I didn't already have Irina, I would write Jack. But for some reason writing Jack has always come easy to me, and I wanted a challenge. Maybe I shouldn't be so proud of the fact that I can channel Jack so easily, but I am.

I should go to bed, but I'm not tired. Probably a bad sign; I'm going to be awake for hours, and I may regret this tomorrow. But who cares, right? I'm on vacation