NaNo: Noooooo!

[urbandruid]

Gah.

I don't want to NaNoWrite anymore. I don't. I'm just turning out crap, crap, and more crap- and the apartment is doing that lovely lack of heat thing again which means I can hardly move my fingers...shit. Why me?

I don't want to write, I don't want to do my math homework, I don't want to do anything except sit on my ass and whine about how pathetic I am, how much my novel sucks, and how much I just want to give up. It's awful, on its way to really dreadful. Why did I do this to myself? Why?

I'm thinking I should not have used that really old idea I could never make work. The NaNo people are right, you've got too much invested, and the minute I decided to call my main character Kimberly Miller, the minute I made her that Kimberly Miller, of the old "I tried to write a really horrid novel when I was thirteen" fame, it became... well, it became this, which is a huge problem and... I hate it. I hate everything.

What was I thinking? What was I thinking?

And I think my word count is fucked up anyway; it sems to take the three astricks I use to mark ends of chapters as a word...so I suck more than I ever thought I would.

But yeah, I'm still typing. I'm going to catch bohemienne if it kills me. And it might.

Edited to add: Word count = 3972 bits of crap :)

Comments

[bohemienne.livejournal.com]

Just start a new new story. Don't throw out your current count, just hit a page break and start somewhere completely new. If you hate the story that much, then you won't make it. :(

Come on, I need an ass-kicking!

[scottique.livejournal.com]

Don't feel too bad; I'm still at less than 500 words... school is kicking ass right now, and that ass happens to be mine. :-P

YOU CAN DO IT! YOU CAN DO IT!