another girl's paradise

[urbandruid]

They say every girl can tell you who her best friend is.

Me, I don't have one anymore.

A long time ago there were best friends- one moved away, the other manipulated me for years before I realized it.

Then there was Adam, who I made the mistake of falling in love with. Bad idea. We were alright as friends, but it never worked out. And you can't turn back the clock. Especially not when he hates you for stuff you didn't even do.

Then there was Lindsay. But Lindsay's best friend is Melissa.

Roxanne, but her best friend is Ria...

Jonni, whose best friend is someone I've never met (and she's gone now anyway, off to Arizona)...

Necie, who had great best girlfriend potential, till she turned out to be a flake and... not a good person.

Mica, who manipulated me with a style my old best friend could have envied.

I have some really cool friends. But I am nobody's best friend.

You guys remember the big news I was talking about before finals? I kept meaning to say something about it, never did. Wrote another of those letters to Lindsay I'll never send, and still- haven't told a soul.

I wanted to tell it to one good friend, first, but I haven't got one.

I'm not mad at you, Linds, Rox, Andromache, the rest of you... I'm just lonely and a bit depressed. And lacking a best friend.

Comments

[bohemienne.livejournal.com]

Aww, poor sis. :( I'll be your sis at the very least! And I'm sure if I actually got to spend as much TIME around you as I did Melissa... *sigh* Ah well, we're all busy people. By the way, I got unlimited weekends on my new cell phone so I've been thinking about calling you sometime. Wanna email me your number and good times to call?